Brittany’s story:
I started processing how I felt through music as young as I can remember. One of my first memories is running around my yard in the country, feeling really happy, hearing lyrics and a melody in my head. Over time, I wanted to share what I was feeling with others. I started writing my song ideas down in high school, and have been sharing music ever since.
Overwhelming emotions, particularly overwhelming sadness, has been something I’ve dealt with all my life. My mom tells me that when I was a baby I was very chill. Unless I was sad about something, then I was really, really sad. That continues to be true for me, and it’s always been hard. Because I am a highly sensitive person, I feel things strongly, and I seem to have a predisposition to feeling low. That combination has led to me focusing a lot on learning about depression in order to live a fulfilling life.
I decided to start writing about and discussing depression because there is still a stigma around it. It’s led to some beautiful moments of connection in my life. One of the most dangerous things that depression tells you is that you are alone. That no one else experiences the shame, pain, rejection, and isolation. Music is a gentle, non-invasive, yet intimate way to meet someone in that lonely place and say “Hey. You’re not alone.” It may only be step one in someone’s healing journey, but if validating someone’s experience is something I can do to help, I am happy to do it. My song Clouds is all about this. We aren’t alone, the sadness won’t always be so heavy, and there’s nothing wrong with being sensitive.
Lyrics
I’m down again
How many times is that
I could try count
But I don’t want to waste your time
Let’s say it’s been a lot
I’m desperate
For change of climate
When I met California
Flowers they seemed happier
And I got jealous
I can’t be who I want
And it’s okay
I seem built to crash
I’m gonna lay down
And feel the weight of the world
Some days it will pass
I live where the gray skies rain
Over the warmest little towns
And Even if I’m not gonna see it for a bit
I know the sun exists
Beyond the clouds
I’m getting older
And every storm
Knocks off a couple petals
But I hunker down
My roots are getting strong
Above the soil
I bow my head
I catch a gust of wind
Look up and see
I’m not alone
I’ve got a lot of friends
We are a flower bed
We can’t be who we want
And it’s ok
We seem built to crash
We’re sensitive
We bend in the wind
But we’re not broken
We live where the gray skies rain
Over the warmest little towns
And even if you’re not gonna see it for a bit
Just know
The sun exists beyond the clouds
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